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About Me Member Procrastinator Kayla M.20/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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  • Current Residence: “Is it time to go home yet? I keep clicking these damn shoes, but nothing happens”
  • Interests: So many things that it doesn't all fit!
  • Favourite movie: Dark Knight
  • Favourite band or musician: I love music so much that to choose would be betrayal of another
  • Favourite genre of music: I don't not have a favorite genre. I like music for all genres.
  • Favourite artist: Yuki Kaori
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Alan Poe
  • Favourite photographer: Havrn't gotten into photograph yet.
  • Favourite style of art: Expressionistic, linearts,Watercolor and in General traditional art froms
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: SongBird, Yay for Mozilla! Yay for freesource!
  • Wallpaper of choice: Right now I'm using the Green Lady. She is too pretty...
  • Skin of choice: I have no feather for Songbird right now. Gonna develop one soon.
  • Favourite game: Katamari Damashii and Final Fantasy VIII and I always really enjoy the new Gears of War
  • Favourite gaming platform: Super Nintendo, Colecovision, Xbox 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Freak-a-zoid! Fwwwwooosh!
  • Personal Quote: "No one loves you."
  • Tools of the Trade: My Purple BIC Pencil #2 o.7mm; water colors ; Carcoal; Ink Pen; Colored Pencil; And an optical mouse

Loosing What's Important

Wed Nov 25, 2009, 10:05 PM
  • Mood: Homesick
  • Listening to: Soundscape ~ BoA
I'm pretty frustrated. I'm realizing now there is no one I could trust to make any of my ritual garments is Allen... Which sucks as Yule is coming upon me so quickly.
Make the world stop please? for just a moment I do not want to make any decisions. I don't wanna have to choose between people, or to have to more away from them. The people that were important to me, why were they always hurtful, to where I had to push them away just to get through the day? Without him there is always something missing, but without him there is always neglect, there is always loneliness. God, if you existed you could save me.
I'm not sure now what I will do for Yule. Somehow, it will feel too wrong to light a yule log in my usual wares...I don't know where or how I should turn or what step I should take.
Everything has me a bit stressed.
I need a gentle hand, sometimes.

"The people that were important to me, why were they always hurtful, to where I had to push them away just to get through the day? to wake up full of life i left him closer to me in soul so far away within reality I never understood the connection we shared, and everyday I look back, I look back on those times and I wonder what could have been as if it were years ago As I know I cannot go back my regret makes those days a century ago. giving me nothing but emptiness. isn't that why I left? making these connections fall even though they are not forgotten? Leaving me loneliness fragile as glass?"

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Thanks for the fav! That was actually quite unexpected XP I'm rediculously tired and didn't really put much effort into the writing of that one...

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thanks for the fav :)

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I hurt myself today to see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

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